I’m becoming Amanda Lairsey.

Over the past several months I’ve been asked the same question over and over and OVER again. “Amanda, what is your intention with this blog? Why are you leading a women’s group in Nashville? What are you doing?” Apparently folks can tell I’m up to something… but they are not sure as to what that something is. Well my friend… neither do I. All I know is that I’m in a state of becoming.

God is strategic.

I love that about Him. My favorite element about God’s strategic plan is the people He so perfectly places in our lives. God recently placed a certain social media follower along my path: Emily B. Cummings, founder of BecomingMe.TV.

I had zero connection with Emily prior to her direct message via Instagram last month. She told me in her message that she shares women’s stories on social media and she would love to “feature” me. The only thing I needed to do was send her my story or define what “becoming” means to me. Hmmmm… that’s an interesting ask.

Upon further investigation, I realized that Emily and her team have an amazing mission. They are empowering women and young entrepreneurs all over the world to take hold of what God has called them to be. I was so inspired by Emily and her vision to help women that I immediately started writing. The words flowed so easily and beautifully… What appeared on my computer screen utterly surprised me.

Her question caused my heart to pour out the biggest realization that I have had in years. I didn’t even know it until I read my own words. Here is what I wrote to Emily:

I’m in a state of becoming at this very moment.

At the beginning of 2016, I sought after renewal… a renewal of my mind and a reminder of my purpose in life. For the last two years, I was operating without any clarity or direction. I’ve always known that my purpose was to love others and show Christ, but I just didn’t know HOW to do this anymore. I felt stuck.

After many months of praying, the Lord pointed me in the direction of blogging. Here is the thing… I’ve never had a desire to write nor do I think I’m a skilled writer… but I wanted to do exactly what God told me to do. So, I blindly started a blog. Though God didn’t directly tell me what topic to write on, I went with what I felt was on my mind/heart for the last 12-months: authentic relationships (or the lack thereof) within the professional business sector. I defined my blog purpose as: “A busy woman’s perspective on business, faith, and long lasting relationships.”

After four months of blogging… all I can say is WOW at the changes in my life. My entire mindset has changed. The things that brought me joy before are the things I dread doing now. In fact, the things that bring me true joy and gratification right now include meditating, reflecting, and writing. I absolutely love early mornings and deeeeeep conversations. WHO AM I???? I don’t recognize myself one bit.

Sometimes I write a blog and think, “Whoa… this is a little too honest, but I’m going to do it anyways…”, but those blog posts produce emails from strangers that tell me how my single blog post impacted their life in some way. I am floored. I had no idea that I was capable of all of this (if I were honest… without God I don’t think I am capable).

I am in a state of becoming and I’ve decided… I always want to be here. Something big is changing in my life… I feel as though I am walking forward with blinders… I can feel the sweet air and I’m giddy to get to wherever I’m going, but at the same time… I can’t see the final destination and I’m nervous. I am fully reliant on God while reminding myself to not get in the way of what God is doing in and through me. I’m liiiiiterally walking by faith. I’m becoming the woman that God has called me to be… I don’t know what that woman looks like, but I am EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Click here to see my story featured on BecomingMe.TV.

YOU CAN BE THE WOMAN GOD WANTS YOU TO BE

I don’t know what I’m doing other than becoming the woman God has called me to be. I don’t know what that woman looks like. I guess we’ll find out on the other side. Until then, will you join me?

We all have a purpose, a calling, a special gift, and an opportunity to become who God has intended for us to be. Sometimes we resist because we are afraid. Other times we resist because it doesn’t make logical sense. I’m here to tell you, friend. Don’t resist! Please don’t let fear, anxiety, uncertainty, or even logic hold you back. Become who God intended for you to be by trusting what He tells you to do. Sure, it requires a crazy amount of faith, but YOU have that faith deep down in your soul. Reach inside and grab it because the process of “becoming” is the best. Let’s take this journey together! Please?!?!

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” Proverbs 3:5-6

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3 thoughts on “I’m becoming Amanda Lairsey.

  1. Amanda! I LOVED this one! You are an amazing woman and I’m so proud to call you friend. Its cool to watch you on your journey and how you inspire others so well…including me.

  2. It’s four years ago this month that I set out to write full time and to reach the world for Christ. One of the biggest most important moves to take is outside your comfort zone. The certain faith I needed was found in one step. We are one my friend in what thrills my heart most is being smitten by His love letter, the Bible, and realizing the promises our beautiful Father has for us all. I have traveled to several places in this world but none is more exciting than the journey into His heart. I’m not rich living this way but certainly enriched beyond measure. The verse you included is my life verse. The becoming journey doesn’t make good sense, has no logic and really messes up a girl’s rationale, but becoming whole is a life long goal we all secretly want. It needs our full attention. I look back and see I’ve grown exponentially. I’ve even lost over 100 lbs (now maintaining a reasonable weight) in the process. I’ve never regretted the decision to put my heart on His altar and attempt to write about this faith process. If nothing else it’s helped me love myself and find inner peace. I truly do wake up everyday with a joy of knowing Him and a longing desire to know Him more. Thanks for your post, it helps to know there’s encouragement on the other side of my screen and read about others who doing the same. I admire Emily’s tenacity in leading others and celebrating the journey of becoming who we were meant to be.

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